*Cherrie's*

Haf eu dOPes eva tot bout death..?

Bout huw & wen eu'lL leavin dis earth..?

Last 2daes, bout 2-3+am, i was tryin 2 close ma eyes..

SudDenly, i had a real difFiculty in breathin..

Ma heart beats in a veri unusual rate..

Senses cums 2 me, i dunNoe huw it does..

Bud its telLin me tat tats huw da feElin wen eu r goink 2 haf yur last breath..

Yeah i noe, it sounds creEpy 2 eu..

Ma godnesz, onlie AlLAh noes huw i was feElin, wat am i tynkin..

I holLa G bck on da line, he's strtin 2 sobs..

Tryin real hrd 2 gt me on ma calm mode..

I den woke mAMa up..

I was begGin her nt 2 cleEp..

I gt ma eye bag sag lyke nobody businesz, yes, i was cleEpy..

Nt mentionin im tired due 2 dnce pracs..

I was soOo scrd 2 cleEp tat i had ma bathe @ 6.30am..

I wasnt cleEpin thruout, i gotTa b honest..

Im just afraid tat i wun b wekin-up wen i had ma eyes closed..

Nuh dOPes..

Its nevar ez as just tryin 2 put alL dis unwanted imaginaries bck ma head..

I was rilLy afraid tat i didnt haf da chnce 2 wtch da sun shines..

In isLAm blieves, 100daes bfore da dae of yur death, eu shud b feElin rather weird & sumhuw noes thres sumtin goink hpPn 2 eu..

I was feElin tat wae dOPes..

I felt i was livin witout lyfe..

Eu feEl me..?

Body witout soul..

Am nt bulLshitin mA dEAr..

I didnt haf apPropriate cleEpin order, i had ma mind dead..

GotTa b real honest..

G was da nevar-endin strength..

He was soOo caring..

He gt me 2 cleEp soundly bfore he cud tek a nap..

I was tryin 2b optimistic..

Mayb due 2 intensive dnce pracs, i cn nevar haf enufF ova gasSy drnks & cigGies..

On da otha hnd..

I hope dis was just a reminder frm alLAh 2 make me realise lyfe is rilLy shrt..

2 mch atTntion on earth, nevar tot of da otha werld..
Evn now tilL GOd noes wen, i stilL haf dis unusual heart beatin rate in me..

Mmang btol..

Kepade semuer yg hidop, mesti ader yg mati..

Ajal dan maot aderla benar..

SesungGuhnyer, ko cabot la nyawa ku dlm keadaAn aku mengingati mu yA alLAh..

Berila aku kesempatan bertaubat, manjage mAMa, pAPa & aDEq, mendirikan rumahtangGe dan melihat anak ku bersanding ke jinjang pelamin..

Berila aku kesempatan mengucap dua kali masyahadah sblom aku melelapkn mater ku uat kali terakhir..

G sAyANg..

Tankiu fr alL yur lurve, yur care, yur atTntion..

Semoga ini aderla sesuatu pengajaran uat kiTEr semuer..

2 ya'lL dOPes & maself..

InsylLh..

Wif GOd's wilL, i stilL haf da chnce 2 blog again.. =)

LotzaLurves,

LAdyCherRiE

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